i'm seriously happy with my life now!
i've got the most supportive, adorable, everything nice family and relatives.
i've got the most understanding and supportive friends.
i've got the best companionS in the WWW.



i just feel like telling the people that i love how much i love them.
whenever we have the chance to tell someone how much we love them, we should do that.
i embrace each and every second that i can spend with each and everyone of them. =))




:: regards ::



Rae




ps : * heart beats *

Burj Dubai - The Tallest Building in the world. The Burj Dubai skyscraper is a world-class destination and the magnificent centerpiece of Downtown Burj Dubai, Dubai's new urban masterpiece. The world's tallest building is surrounded by hotels, must-visit shopping destinations and a world of entertaintment options.

it is just so beautiful isn't it? * hearts *

the shopping paradise... =))

it's definitely a beautiful and high end destination, one of the place that i want step on very very much. Lord knows how much i want to get there. =| okay, let's start saving to get there. how long will it takes you to save that much amount of money huh? it'll takes me forever... =.="



it's fact that you can get the tallest building in the world there, you can get beautiful shopping complexes and breath taking scenery there. but because of what "they" want to have it there, Dubai got themselves into very big trouble now. debts debts and debts. =(


arh... it definitely has nothing to do with me. but i do wish that they can get over all these hard times now.. after all, it's still my dream to get there what? =|




have a good day ahead peeps! =))



:: regards ::





RAe



ps : everyday is a good day! =)



pss : you just don't know when to stop don't you? pathetic.

can't wait to get this!!! =))

Christmas is finally over, everything is back to normal i guess? har.. not everything, feeling is back to normal. Christmas mood is over and let's wait for the arrival of... NEW YEAR!!!
new year, new start ha. okay lor, take it as a new start, try out something new, different wish and all. let's see =))


my Christmas day was so so soooooooo special. i actually spent my Christmas in "Crab Island". oh. this sounds so weird. it's Pulau Ketam fyi. that was my first time there, a different kind of visiting i would say. i memang sua gu enough, Pulau Ketam only also didn't go before. sien dao~
well, they are famous with their barley and Lala Jian and seafood of course. no comment for the food but the barley was awesome. i love the light floral scent of it. * yum *


if i were to follow the devils, i will be in S'pore by now. i'm kinda sien with S'pore already lor. shopping is all that i can do there, unless i go with different bunch of people lar. =))



will be a boring day ahead i guess? well, MAKE IT MEANINGFUL!!!! =D





:: regards ::




Rae




ps : feeling kinda low, i do wonder why? =|

This is specially for Baby Kayden. =)

My very first and only wish for this Xmas is… I pray that Baby Kayden will be healed from his sickness.I ask GOD to heal him, I ask GOD to forgive every sin of Baby Kayden and bless him with a good health. I ask GOD to bless him with courage to fight all the obstacles that he is facing now, all the pain, all the suffering.. Praying that someday, all the pain and sufferings will turn into a shield that protects him in the future. I ask GOD to bless BAby Kayden with strength to hold on, Hang on to YOU. GOD, i have faith in you. I am very sure that there’s a purpose why Kayden is going through all these. GOD, You are making him strong day by day. GOD, please be with this baby fighter every single moment. God, you are almighty, You are our savior. You are our leader. Our God, is God who saves.

I pray to God, in this meaningful day, You will wash away all the sins of my loved ones and be with them, bless them with happiness and joy. May God be with them.

God, You have done great things
God, You give grace to the weak
And bless the brokenhearted
With a song of praise to sing
You reached down and lifted us up
You came running, looking for us
And now there's nothing
And no one beyond Your love..

Let your mercy rain on us… especially to Baby Kayden.

My promise to God almighty, I will still continue my prayers to this Baby Fighter. God, he is strong under your grace. Yes, He is a special boy.. that’s why he is here, to prove to us that he can fight against the odds. =)

thank you God for everything,

Hallelujah… Hallelujah… Hallelujah…

In the name of God, Amen.

Got them from DellynnLim's.
fyi, i'm not Christian. =) i just found this meaningful and that i really want to share the prayers.



herh. Rachel have had a very different Christmas celebration this year. this is the first year that she didn't celebrate Christmas together with her family and siblings. first year, out of 19 years! ( you got my first time again!!! =| )
argh.... i smelll turkey. i smell spagetti. i smell lamb. i smell lasagna. i smell wines. i smell yummy Fruit Salad which i can only have on Christmas Eve!!!! its all worthy as i've exchanged all the foods and time that i'll have with my family and siblings to something else. i've got a great, wonderful, special, anything nice that you can think of as a present!!!! * flying *



what's the plan for today? seriously, i do not know. i don't know what am i suppose to do from today till sunday!!! so korlian hor? =( will definitely get something to do later if possible. i just don't wanna end this meaningful day just like that!!! =D




basically, that's all! toodles for now! =D




MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! xoxoxoxo






:: regards ::





Rae





ps : mum & dad, i heart you. =)



pss : lots of photos ha!!! =P


psss : have a safe trip ahead! merry xmas! and i want my pressie!!! i'll try to miss you! ( even though i know i wont. =.=" ) =P

hi everyone! sorry that i have abandoned bloggie for days. my bad my bad. too many things happened and they were driving me up the wall?
cheh~ no lar. but many things did happened. someone said, instead of saying "end of something", we say "start of something new" ? =)) yeah, it's a brand new start i would say. .


i've got to know someone better and i see the future of mine to be in a better state? i love this. i love seeing myself standing higher instead of lowering it. everyone loves this isn't it? who doesn't want to climb higher if they can? if you're really unable to climb, or run, or walk, you don't mind crawling for it also isn't it? okay, that's just my thinking. =))


not celebrating Christmas this year at home and my aunts are all shooting me for that. shoot me so many times somemore, guess that they don't know how meaningful this Christmas Eve for me this year i guess? they'll understand it someday somehow. glad to have understanding mum and aunts, the love from me towards them will never decrease! * i heart them *


especially mummy, she'd said things that really made me cried. seriously shed. =|
and guess what? we both cried together. =.=" but for a very short while only lar obviously. but seriously, what she said seriously melted my heart and i've carved it in my heart so that i can remember it for the rest of my life. Mum, special love for you. =))


new year resolution for next year will be coming soon! but i'll only do it in my list, not for public. hahaha! in case i'll get any comments from anyone. i don't want any comments and people knowing what's my new year resolutions. kiam siap perhaps? =DD



to you:
never doubt your status in my heart. and of course, harabuchi's also. never doubt. every single moment that i get to spend with you guys, i treasure them loads. and thanks for bringing me another humorous and loving parents. =)) thanks. * hearts *


to you:
i want loads of memories, can? =P





:: regards ::




Rae





ps : i don't mind what others will say, i just do what i want to and that's it! =))







pss : merry christmas everyone!!! embrace each and every moment on this meaningful festive day! xoxoxoxoxo

my first time!! okay lar, i'm sua gu enough, haven been into for Korean food before and hence, i followed the PEOPLE for it. Korean BBQ =))

they were eating halfway already when i arrive.
sweat kan? =.="
but nvm lar, i don't really fancy the food there also.
the kimchi tastes sour + so spicy.
=.="



and they are seriously so expensive!
you can only go with adults lor. hahah!



then, at night, headed over to my god-parents' place for dinner.
and i was so happy to see my devils! =))

isn't he adorable? =P

i'm out of idea of what to blog. basically, nothing special happened and that's it! =.="





:: regards ::




Rae




ps : i'm so proud that i've actually convinced you successfully. =) && i love to make you tear. who asked you to make me tear so often also? =PP &&& good luck for tomorrow! =)

hi there! arh... not blogging for days and i feel a little... rot? already. hahha! don't really know what to blog actually. many things happened and i am so lazy to blog it out. =P



ehem. ehem. i went to visit my boy this afternoon after i went to trim my hair. and my hair now, looks cacat. =.="

this is my boy, taking his afternoon nap.
isn't he just adorable?
just like me! =PP

and, i actually went to Pyramid to hunt for shoes last friday. but too bad, nothing caught my eyes. =.=" but at least it's all worthy to have rushed all the way there as i got to try new ice cream!!!! =))

don't ask me why i looked like tat, happened to be a little cacat. =.="
and yeah, the new ice cream is KINDORI.
the way they produced the ice cream is different thou.

all you have to choose is the type of fruit you want.
they just get the fruit and put it into a machine and
somehow after that,
TADAAA!!
you'll get the yummy ice-cream! =)

and yeah, something had happened officially. i do believe that when it's yours, it'll return back to you no matter what. =)






:: regards ::




RAe




ps : aiyoh. how much i wish that i can stop working from now onwards... =.="

can this really work out?
comparisons are easily done once you had a taste of perfection.
i've tried hard not to compare. i really tried.
i don't wanna care about all the pain and tears or so to say consequences that will happen in front of me.
but i really do doubt, can this really work out if i do something to it?
can it?
we were used to be who we are, is it possible for us to accept the we that we are going to be?




:: regards ::



Rae

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

Cause without you I cant breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

it's harder than expected.

everything is tougher than i thought...!!!

hello weekend! i've had a great weekend actually. A VERY VERY GOOD ONE i would say.
i've actually went to Sepang Gold Coast for the second time with a different person. i would like to say that i've enjoyed much and i've got to know new things, different things and i would like to announce that, THEY ARE ALL VERY INTERESTING! =)) i heart it.


things went on well until.. dinner time? i do not know how to react to that actually. still, i can hardly accept it. do give me some time, i'm sure that i'll get through it, by hook or by crook! =))


it has been a great day for me.. how about you?
pictures will be uploaded next! =)






:: regards ::




RAe





ps : someone wrote in her blog " visit here for pictures " but sorry, not in the mood to blog any further now. i need to get myself back. gomen!


pss : if it's not you, my day wouldn't be that great. i do wish that you stay, like seriously. but i'll respect and support you in whatever decision you have made. =))


psss : something surprising, if you don't mind, give me four years and you'll know how you've made me feel! ( yeah, you. you made me go !#*%&^@# ) =|

aloha! tell you something great! i have finally got my ass to the Fun Fair on Tuesday night! ya la. sua gu like me have only went to the Fun Fair once or twice. and that was when i was 6 or younger than that and it's only with dad. i miss those days, like seriously. cause, if you do know me well, i'm not that close to my dad, even if i know that he loves me as much as he loves my fat bro. but somehow, the gap is there and there's nothing else that i can do to decrease the gap especially when i'm now a grown up. =|

and the only fun memory, loving moment that i have with my dad is only when i was 5-6. and it's in the Fun Fair. this simply explained why that i wanted to get there all these while and it's just that time doesn't allow or i should say, people doesn't allow? =.="


but well, i've got there like finally and there's nothing much i like it there. i don't like crazy rides, it will only makes me nausea and all. and the throwing things part to get free gifts? it's like OMG part only lo! they suck money wan lor! sweat! and you know what? the worst part is that i smell cow dung everywhere i go in that place! god! and the game i remembered playing with my dad, they changed the rule / the style of playing already. two words = NO RIKE! =.="

but still, i feel worthy for the amount of money i spent there la.
once in a FEW years, its okay. =)
and of course, it's more worth it that i got to take picture together with " Sei Yeh " !! =P


and dad, i heart you loads. like seriously. =)

******************

wednesday :


after work in LifeCare, i got to see my beloved monkey!

Bryan Leow!
ignore his "smokey" eyes please, he just woke up from nap! =.="

camera shy konon-nya.

the worst part spending time with them is that,
you have to spend money!
they'll ask you buy this and that.
and if you buy,
you have to keep both of your eyes on them like, ALL THE TIME!
especially when they eat ice-cream. =|

kaki bully.

kaki lau gai

***************

someone ended her STPM yesterday and was eager to go out. and of course, the ji-mui's entertained her lar. and we headed to the Green Box. =P

arh.... it's been a long while since we k song together! obviously, we SHOUTED like nobody's business! LOL
& then, dinner together in BBQ Plaza. =)

*陪座的*! =P
toking lansy-ly with his I. =.="

camera shy konon-nya...

ah bang.

ah hui!

now not camera shy already. =.="

alright then, that's it!


oh ya, there's one thing that i would like to say. sorry to Bong Phei Ling and Tan Yong Hui, i kept something from you guys yesterday. =.="
i actually vomited while we're half way singing. sorry, too unwell already. thanks to the stomach gas. and NO! i swear to God that i did not skip meals or anything! and NO i seriously didn't feel hungry or anything and it just happened! =.=" and i think it explained why i ate a little more yesterday i guess? =)







:: regards ::




ps : let's bring down 1 world tomorrow! sissy!!!!!!! i'll thank you for the ride! =PP

i want to watch this!

anyone wants to catch a laugh production together with me??! please...~~~

some people are phobia to CLOWNS. some, and i do not know why. but, sorry to say that, they are so UGLY! scary? i don't think so. they just trying to be fun, to entertain u ma! =))





&& some people are weird enough to be phobia towards......

|
|
v

FUN FAIR!!!!

come on lar. why phobia to this?! it's named FUN FAIR and of course it'll be fun! alright, okay i know, everyone has their very own stories and no one will be blamed for that. but i definitely will not phobia towards something that is fun, that will bring you laughter and happiness! =))








gotta go to see children! ttfn! =))


:: regards ::



RAe




ps : it brings no harm. =))

glad that i still keep in contact with my primary school's friend. but pitiful to say, only one of them! =.=" which is the Khoo Wei Wei. hahah!

it's kinda weird how and why i got so close with her after primary school ya know? we used to dislike each other in primary school! =.="


well, I LOVE MY SUNDAY! how about you? woke up early for breakfast, then, watched drama. and then, Starbucks with that short one and TiamBeng's son! =P
seriously i do wonder what did we talked actually. we chatted like from 2-6pm there! then, drove all the way to Jusco BBK just for Nando's! what to do? urge to western food but doesn't want Kenny Roger's and that's it! hahah!



and then, we went for this! :

i rate this 6.5/10
this movie is not bad thou.
at least it made me laugh from like, beginning till the end?
not really from beginning till the end lar.
but it's close to that already. hahah!
worth watching! =)

wanted to watch Christmas Carol for the second time with them actually because someone doesn't know the meaning of Christmas!!!!!!!!! =|


sorry, no pictures were taken cause my cam wasn't in my bag! so pissed lar! ={


i have one news which is kinda.. miserable for me. =(
no Christmas celebration this year!!!! ='(
why?
1 out of the 6's families will be in Greece and another 1 out of 6's will be in Vietnam! so, anyone want to book me for the Christmas Eve please?! ='((




okay lar. basically that was my day and i seriously enjoy spending time talking about life and times together with the very both of them. at least we can know each other better?! seeing people from another perspectives and all. and okay, i'll stop comparing from now onwards. promise that i'll try... i'll try..... =))




:: regards ::





rae




ps : Quidnunc? Poppysmic?! ahahah!




pss : i just want to be happy!

hi folks! tell you something great. finally, i've got the chance to step into LOOK OUT POINT. KKKK, now i know that they are actually two different places. ahahah!


nope, i didn't go with friends or family. instead, i went with other people's family. =|

( this is taken from other webbie. sorry that i do not own a DSLR. =( )

like, finally..
and suddenly..

i got one elder bro and sis.
surprise eh?! =P

the parents.

sorry. don't blame my skill. it's my noobie camera!

this restaurant is just so nice!
i'll definitely go with only my soulmate next time!
let's see! =P

basically, that was my dinner + supper already. cause we BOUNCED ( thanks to the Hilux ) and JAMMED ( thanks to the congested roads ) all the way there. =.="


morning was as usual, with kids and afternoon, online then... went to a completely WAN TAN place. =.="



okay. that's it.
for more information or nicer pics of me, do visit DumbOnion's =)






:: regards ::




rae




ps : ah boon, thanks for believing. i'll definitely get through that feeling! =))

ever heard the story of Mistletoe Plant? if no, go google search yourself lar! =P


it is what i want, with my very soulmate! let's see who will be the one. =) give me 8 years' time lar! =|



i should be fine now already. should be. =))




:: regards ::




Rae




ps : the gap is really there already.


pss : i'm always happy whenever i'm with the very two of you. =))

yo! today was great! guess what? i bought FEW pieces from Blook at super duper CHEAP price i tell you. my favourite store! and know what? this time around, no need to shop all over the places before CNY already, cause i've got something real RED! =P so proud! =X and guess what? i seriously bought many other stuffs. half of them were sponsored by mummy as i just chunk-ed it into the trolley. HAHAHA!


& i do notice that i love children more and more now. somehow, some part of me just stop me from being patient towards them. cause, they'll tend to bully you when you are too nice to them. shoot them!!! =PP

*********************

to you :


why do you like to make me shed most of the time when i read your blog? =.="
what my heart is saying is real confusing and i refuse to listen to it now. too many things coming up and i can hardly breathe.. what i am trying to do is to ignore the FB page. refuse to know anything about anyone, i just look at and concern about myself and only myself. do hope that i am currently doing the right thing. wish that everything can come to a halt before i make the very decision or anything. all these shyt happen over and over again. it's always there but somehow, it got stronger and more obvious this time around.

i'll be fine =)



when can we go GreenBox again? my voice can't wait to recover already. =D

***********************

:: regards ::



rAe




ps : i'm feeling numb. getting used to it. is it a good thing?

to you:


you know what?
i seriously think that you're the only person who can understand how and what i feel even if we're quite far apart. seriously, i'm not okay. ='( i do not know why the feeling is there. i really don't know why. think that this kind of feeling, only me myself can get rid of it. no one else could beside myself. you better be good in your attachment. i really wish that i couldn visit that manufacturing department also. it sounded so interesting and i'm so kepoh. =| you better do well. please don't worry about me. =) but there's really something i would like to ask, why do i have such a strong feeling about something someone told? why will i have such a different reaction? i wouldn't feel that way if i am still the one i used to be... and to be honest, i do feel heart broken for that. can you please heal my heart?



i miss you..



:: regards ::



rae





ps : what else can i do please?

I.... I.... I....
gawd! i'm seriously cuckoo-ed! damn! i've never been so helpless before! yor! !!!! one little mistake i did will be enough to stab me in the heart. shyt! shyt myself. i know. shyt!!!!





i seriously wish that i can leave everything behind. of course, i wish i do not have to use my brain, AT ALL. all these are ruining up my life! so so so damn!





Lord help me please!







right. besides this, i would like to wish my beloved youngest aunt, Jennie Liang a very happy birthday!!!! :)

heart ya! =))

i'm still..... confused!

:: regards ::




Rae




ps : the gap is there already. how?

//edited.

hi people! been MIA for days. of course, i went to a Better place ( not heaven lar of course! ) for a short vacation and that's why... :)








we went to a place we have wanted to go since the beginning of this year. and obviously, we went there almost at the end of the year, as planned! =) and that place is... somehow, in a so-called forest? a retreat forest - Sekeping Serendah.

red = evil = they are evil. =P

isn't this shot looks much better? =)

the only girls. =)
there must be something or else i wouldn't be so happy?

gawd. why do i have small eyes? =.="

they're from France! the girl is just so cute, isn't she?

Timber Shed.

we were waiting patiently for the previous customers to check out!

SS?

we decided to take a walk inside that retreat while waiting for those slowpokes to check out at 1.30pm. some people are just so...
not punctual! their check out time is 12pm wan le! gawd!

the pool!

ignore the one in red. look at the chair.
isn't it cool? :)

the green!

the nature!
the colour is just so nice! =)

our shed - Glass Shed

the BBQ area.

climb the stairs and you're at the BBQ area already. =)

the living hall + the little kitchen on the right

the bathroom.
please don't "yerr" okay? we're in the world of nature!

let's show you the UPSTAIRS!

the beds!

it's all in glass!

it's STICK-ed to the wall. lol

he pee-ed!

they claimed themselves lengchai.
do you think so? =.="
no they're not.
but they are in the HEART.. =)

we ( should be I lar. it was all my idea! )
planned this!
a belated birthday celebration for Mr.Ng EuGene
i know, it's not the most expensive surprise, but,
it's the HEART that matters isn't it? =))

half naked? blowed the so called HUAT KER! :P

anyone interested with him? he's still single and available thou. =D

this dog, from nowhere. just like to come to our shed. >.<

the first night - BBQ night!
they are just acting as thou they are working hard to even out the fire. * sigh *

supper for the first night.
cooking Maggi Mee by that lansi guy - EuGene
because he's in White!

second day's breakfast, and we cooked it outside our shed! cool ain't it? =)
ignore my facial expression please. someone just bullied me. >.<

nv ren, cooking!

nan ren, cooking! xD

fyi, you can hardly feel the sun there thou!
all that you can feel is only..
i do not know how to say.
not warm, not hot, not very cold, just nice.

red dao~~~~

Burger for lunch! thanks to me for the cooking!
the taste was GooD! =P

after lunch, we played this, RISK!
before that, we played monopoly.

this is... our so-called dinner? should be supper actually.
cause we were all so into the games and we did not feel hungry surprisingly!
i didn't know that Burger is actually that filling! hahah!



and then, disaster happened at night. thanks to
Ngiam Wei Lee

seriously, i do feel so bad for that, i didn't mean to do that, it's not what i want.
i'm just so troublesome i guess?
and hence, i need a boyfriend who can bear with the troubles i've caused and those i'll cause!
is there someone like that?
gah~ forget that then. enough of it.

you might think that it's boring staying in places like that, but fyi, IT WAS FUN! WHOLE LOT OF FUN i tell you! we didn't feel like going home thou!
basically, we relax-ed and really had a lot of fun, it was all laughter and that's all it needs. this bunch of friends of mine, are definitely sent from the above. thanks for being so caring and thanks for being bearable for " you know what ". " no next time " ( crossed my heart )
&& i do not know why i've said or done things that i've not done or said before! it was so not me! shyt myself. my image, impressions i've been given... gone cuckoo-ed! >.<




thank you SamSam, EuGenie, Kor Kor and Shi Ying! =))

*********************

I got lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be......
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you!





i'm just right there....





:: regards ::



Rae





ps : why am i so weak? why?


pss : something is wrong with my heart. why do i feel so wrong?


psss : and, is it a good thing for someone to be cruel or so to say, cunning in order to survive in the reality? is it good to see someone from both the good and bad sides? i'm confused! is it okay? is it something right? is this the process of growing?


pssss : i'll never play Strategy game again, the process isn't something i want to see, to know. >.<